Jane Eyre

he looked at them with a smile both acrid and desolate.

"That is MY WIFE," said he.  "Such is the sole conjugal embrace
I am ever to know -- such are the endearments which are to solace
my leisure hours!  And THIS is what I wished to have" (laying his
hand on my shoulder):  "this young girl, who stands so grave and
quiet at the mouth of hell, looking collectedly at the gambols of
a demon, I wanted her just as a change after that fierce ragout.
Wood and Briggs, look at the difference!  Compare these clear eyes
with the red balls yonder -- this face with that mask -- this form
with that bulk; then judge me, priest of the gospel and man of the
law, and remember with what judgment ye judge ye shall be judged!
Off with you now.  I must shut up my prize."

We all withdrew.  Mr. Rochester stayed a moment behind us, to give
some further order to Grace Poole.  The solicitor addressed me as
he descended the stair.

"You, madam," said he, "are cleared from all blame:  your uncle
will be glad to hear it -- if, indeed, he should be still living
-- when Mr. Mason returns to Madeira."

"My uncle!  What of him?  Do you know him?"

"Mr. Mason does.  Mr. Eyre has been the Funchal correspondent of
his house for some years.  When your uncle received your letter
intimating the contemplated union between yourself and Mr. Rochester,
Mr. Mason, who was staying at Madeira to recruit his health, on his
way back to Jamaica, happened to be with him.  Mr. Eyre mentioned
the intelligence; for he knew that my client here was acquainted
with a gentleman of the name of Rochester.  Mr. Mason, astonished
and distressed as you may suppose, revealed the real state of
matters.  Your uncle, I am sorry to say, is now on a sick bed; from
which, considering the nature of his disease -- decline -- and the
stage it has reached, it is unlikely he will ever rise.  He could
not then hasten to England himself, to extricate you from the snare
into which you had fallen, but he implored Mr. Mason to lose no
time in taking steps to prevent the false marriage.  He referred
him to me for assistance.  I used all despatch, and am thankful
I was not too late:  as you, doubtless, must be also.  Were I not
morally certain that your uncle will be dead ere you reach Madeira,
I would advise you to accompany Mr. Mason back; but as it is, I
think you had better remain in England till you can hear further,
either from or of Mr. Eyre.  Have we anything else to stay for?"
he inquired of Mr. Mason.

"No, no -- let us be gone," was the anxious reply; and without
waiting to take leave of Mr. Rochester, they made their exit at
the hall door.  The clergyman stayed to exchange a few sentences,
either of admonition or reproof, with his haughty parishioner; this
duty done, he too departed.

I heard him go as I stood at the half-open door of my own room, to
which I had now withdrawn.  The house cleared, I shut myself in,
fastened the bolt that none might intrude, and proceeded -- not to
weep, not to mourn, I was yet too calm for that, but -- mechanically
to take off the wedding dress, and replace it by the stuff gown I
had worn yesterday, as I thought, for the last time.  I then sat
down:  I felt weak and tired.  I leaned my arms on a table, and
my head dropped on them.  And now I thought:  till now I had only
heard, seen, moved -- followed up and down where I was led or dragged
-- watched event rush on event, disclosure open beyond disclosure:
but NOW, I THOUGHT.

The morning had been a quiet morning enough -- all except the brief
scene with the lunatic:  the transaction in the church had not been
noisy; there was no explosion of passion, no loud altercation, no
dispute, no defiance or challenge, no tears, no sobs:  a few words
had been spoken, a calmly pronounced objection to the marriage
made; some stern, short questions put by Mr. Rochester; answers,
explanations given, evidence adduced; an open admission of the
truth had been uttered by my master; then the living proof had been
seen; the intruders were gone, and all was over.

I was in my own room as usual -- just myself, without obvious
change:  nothing had smitten me, or scathed me, or maimed me.  And
yet where was the Jane Eyre of yesterday? -- where was her life?
-- where were her prospects?

Jane Eyre, who had been an ardent, expectant woman -- almost
a bride, was a cold, solitary girl again:  her life was pale; her
prospects were desolate.  A Christmas frost had come at midsummer;
a white December storm had whirled over June; ice glazed the ripe
apples, drifts crushed the blowing roses; on hayfield and cornfield lay
a frozen shroud:  lanes which last night blushed full of flowers,
to-day were pathless with untrodden snow; and the woods, which
twelve hours since waved leafy and flagrant as groves between the
tropics, now spread, waste, wild, and white as pine-forests in wintry
Norway.  My hopes were all dead -- struck with a subtle doom, such
as, in one night, fell on all the first-born in the land of Egypt.
I looked on my cherished wishes, yesterday so blooming and glowing;
they lay stark, chill, livid corpses that could never revive.  I
looked at my love:  that feeling which was my master's -- which he
had created; it shivered in my heart, like a suffering child in a
cold cradle; sickness and anguish had seized it; it could not seek
Mr. Rochester's arms -- it could not derive warmth from his breast.
Oh, never more could it turn to him; for faith was blighted
-- confidence destroyed!  Mr. Rochester was not to me what he had
been; for he was not what I had thought him.  I would not ascribe
vice to him; I would not say he had betrayed me; but the attribute